Endure and Survive

Photo by Vishal Banik on Unsplash

I’m back
It’s weird
I find myself not knowing how to continue
So, I guess I’ll just dive back in

Headfirst?

Do I try to protect myself?
Do I just say, “fuck it”
and go full force?

I’m deeply unsure

It’s all about the writing
About the vibing
Feeling what the story requires
Moving with the boat as it tries to slosh you off the sides

Yet, the fear seems to grow

I don’t want to miss out on the reactions
I want to make the content
I want to hear your thoughts

But what if I miss a game?
What if I miss the plays?

I’m lost in this drought
Unable to swim
My shouts drowned out by the waves

I want to keep up
So i keep practicing
But I don’t think I’m in the right place
Mentally or physically

They hit harder
They aim sharper
They earn faster
The smile wider